Saturday, 31 January 2015

LEO FULL MOON - 3 February 2015

Exact at 11.09pm GMT, 6.09pm EST!

Well, this is a Full Moon to look forward to, that’s for sure! It is full of joy and child-like wonder and is very much encouraging us to try new things out and focus on what brings us the greatest fulfilment. This is a time to be optimistic, hopeful and even a bit giddy! Full Moons represent the time in the month when we reach an emotional peak and whatever seed or intention was planted during the New Moon comes to fruition. As the Moon becomes full the tides start to swell and so do our emotions. None more so than this Moon because Jupiter, the largest planet, is sitting right next to the Moon, which will expand and exaggerate whatever we might be feeling! Anything that may have been simmering away beneath the surface comes bubbling up during a Full Moon, demanding release and expression. It’s a great time to get things out into the open, though it may not come out in the most rational way. The Moon is far from rational, as she represents the part of us that reacts unconsciously and instinctively and without reason or thought. This Moon is very well supported by the other planets so my hope is that the emotions that come up will be predominantly joyful! They will certainly be big, whatever they are!

The Moon is full in playful, creative and dramatic Leo and is sitting directly opposite the Sun in humanitarian, rebellious and eccentric Aquarius. We are being asked to find the balance between the energy of the two signs and not veer too much in one direction. It is Aquarius season at the moment and it is a good time to stand back and take a look at our lives from the bird’s eye perspective and create a vision of our future. Aquarius stands for Freedom, Equality and Brotherhood. He is the rebel, the revolutionary, the visionary who sees how we can all join together and create a better world to live in. He is the champion of the people and can see how we can each contribute in our own unique way to the whole, or the collective. Leo represents the king or queen, our own unique sense of identity and creative self-expression. While Aquarius’ focus is the needs of group rather than the individual, Leo’s focus is very much on the individual! While Aquarius can sometimes feel a bit like an outsider looking in, Leo is happy standing in the middle of the group; centre stage, in the thick of things! It’s hard to be objective from that standpoint, however, which is where these two balance each other nicely.

There is a child-like innocence to Leo and wherever he is found in our charts we will have a tendency to want to shine and stand out from the crowd. The ruler of Leo is the Sun and as such Leo energy radiates warmth and light out into the world, brightening people’s days and warming their hearts. Indeed, Leo rules the heart and so this Full Moon may bring some very heartfelt and possibly quite dramatic emotions to the surface! Jupiter is also in Leo and is sitting right next to the Moon, expanding the energy of Leo. We are encouraged to let our inner child out to play and to focus on what brings us our greatest joy and is closest to our heart. When we follow our joy everything flows much more easily and we find much less resistance as we move through life! Leo has a playful spirit and while Jupiter is in this sign our greatest growth and expansion will come from opening our hearts and allowing ourselves to take a risk or two. When we learn to follow our joy more often and do what really makes us happy we will develop that childlike trust that the universe will support us as we do so.

Uranus in Aries is also a very big part of this Full Moon as he is forming a supportive aspect to both the Sun and the Moon and is also building up to the second of three harmonious trine aspects with Jupiter. This is a beautiful thing! This aspect can bring sudden opportunities and realisations that will help us grow and expand. Uranus breathes fresh air into the places where we are stuck and this combination could really help us move out of any stasis or stagnation and have the confidence to try something on new for size and express ourselves more fully. This seems like a green light from the universe to have the courage to follow our joy and focus on what we really, truly want for ourselves rather than playing it safe and staying stuck in our old habits and beliefs.

We all have a pretty good idea about what we need to feel happy and fulfilled. Doesn’t it make sense that we should move towards it? It is possible that Uranus will provide us with a few epiphanies and realisations during this Moon as to what we might need to do in order to lead a more joyful and fulfilling existence. Change can feel unsettling but it can also be invigorating and exciting and give us a newfound sense of freedom. The more we focus on the things that bring us joy the more we will attract good things into our life. This really is a time to practice feeling the childlike wonder of the child and taking a risk or two. As we take steps towards what we truly want for ourselves it is very likely that the path will open out in front of us. As we align with our truth the universe will respond in kind and provide us with opportunities to grow further. It is very exciting! As with all trines it is important that we remain alert and take full advantage of any opportunities or realisations during this time rather than wasting them. The trine will be exact on March 3rd, so the energy will be building until then.

The Pluto Uranus square is also gearing up for its 7th and final battle in the heavens. We are very familiar with its energy by now. It has been breaking down the structures of our lives, both collectively and personally, since 2012. Anything that is outworn and no longer serves us has been gradually decaying, collapsing and falling away, whether that be societal and governmental systems or our own personal habits or beliefs, so that something more appropriate can take their place and we can move forward with integrity and a greater sense of personal freedom. We have had to step outside of our comfort zones on numerous occasions so that we can more fully align with the truth of who we are and what we are here to do. The old way simply isn’t working anymore so we have no choice but to move towards something new.

It hasn’t been particularly comfortable but we are now moving through to the other side, entering a new paradigm and trying out this new, authentic way of being which is unusual, unfamiliar yet completely natural somehow. Things are very different than they were before this process began and many of us are much changed.  This last square will very likely smash down the last bit of resistance that we have to the new way, which involves living in a way that is aligned with our truth. This trine between Uranus and Jupiter will help us do that and may make it easier to embrace any change that comes along with it. The trine will hopefully make it feel fun, exciting and liberating instead of scary and unsettling. The final Pluto Uranus square will be exact on the March 17th. The energy is building now.

We also have a Pluto Chiron aspect that is building, helping us to really dig down and do some very deep healing. Both Chiron and Pluto are forming a niggling aspect to the Leo Moon and so they feel quite important to mention. We are being encouraged to bare ourselves, to strip ourselves down so that we can uncover the wounds that hold us back from living our full potential. This will help us find and let go of fears or insecurities that are preventing us from having the confidence to step outside of our comfort zone and follow the path of joy. This aspect could mean that some of the emotions that come to the surface over the course of this Full Moon will be quite intense and deeply healing, as we expose some of our buried wounds and vulnerabilities. This aspect has been in effect since December but is definitely being triggered by this Moon so its energy could be quite prevalent.

I can’t help thinking that the “true selves” that we are looking to become are in fact the children that we were before any of the childhood conditioning took place; before we had to fit into to what our parents and society expected of us. This is the “authentic” self we seek and so the more we can honour our inner child the closer we will get to the truth of who we are. We are just peeling back the layers that have been built up over the years that disguise our true selves. They have been there all the while. Our parents got a glimpse of them. We just have to reacquaint ourselves with that initial spark, that’s all. This Moon is the perfect time to get to know that part of ourselves and have fun being the creators of our reality. Children know very well what they want to do and what doesn’t feel good to them and so do we if we just trust our feelings more! If we imagine it is a game and practice following what brings us joy in that moment we may discover a way to create a much better life and feel freer and happier than ever before. If it makes you feel happy, excited, joyful and relaxed, do it. If it makes you feel anxious, upset, unhappy or nervous, you might want to rethink. It’s as simple as that. For this Moon, imagine that you are a child in a sweet shop and can ask for anything you want. Then just play and have fun!!!

Much Love


Photo by Pete Ryan, National Geographic.

Saturday, 17 January 2015


Exact at 1.14pm GMT, 8.14am EST!

This is the first of six supermoons this year which means that the moon is much closer to the earth than at other times, so it has a more powerful effect on our emotions and spirits than other moons. That being said, New Moons are not as emotional as Full Moons but rather are a time to be somewhat objective about ourselves and our lives. And none more so than this one because the moon is in Aquarius, the sign that encourages detachment and looking at things from the birds eye perspective. This is also the first of two Aquarius New Moons in a row, which is quite rare! Once in a Blue Moon, in fact! This Moon occurs at the very beginning of the first degree of Aquarius, while the New Moon on the 18th of February occurs in the absolute last degree and minute of Aquarius! This particular Moon, as it is so very close to the beginning of the sign and also the first New Moon of 2015, has a very strong sense of new beginnings and fresh new starts. It is a time to contemplate how we want to proceed from here and what we need to leave behind in the dark of the Moon in order to move forward.

Aquarius is the visionary, the sign who looks to the future and sees a better way of doing things, a better life for us all, based on the Aquarian principles of freedom, brotherhood and equality. He puts the needs of the group first rather than the individual. He is the rebel and the revolutionary who goes against the grain and comes up with some quite off the wall alternatives to the way our society is set up. We are in great need this Aquarian vision at the moment as our antiquated systems crumble around us, because something else has to take its place that will take care of the needs of the masses rather than favouring the small percentage who rule the world we live in. It makes sense that Aquarius follows on from Capricorn, the sign of authority, control and government who very much plays by the rules. Aquarius is a reaction to Capricorn and seeks to think outside of the box and question the rules which so many blindly follow. He is the part of us all who dreams of a better future for ourselves and our children. This Moon asks us to contemplate what this better future might actually look like and how we might go about achieving it.

This New Moon follows the Cancer Full Moon, which involved a rather bright light being shone on our ingrained emotional patterns, making it glaringly obvious how they sabotage our relationships and prevent us from moving on in life. The Pluto Uranus square was a very big part of that Moon and so were the Nodes of the Moon, which represent our past and our future on both a personal and collective soul level. Cancer rules the past, the family and our childhood and some of us felt a very strong pull backwards into old, familiar habits and tendencies which are simply so longer serving us. Sometimes we have to step backwards a little in order to move forward. Uranus, the ruler of this Aquarius New Moon, is now even closer to the south node of the moon, encouraging us to blast through those old patterns and step away from the familiar, self-defeating, habitual tendencies into a new way of being altogether. This is the time to take a step back and be objective, taking a long hard look at ourselves so that we recognise where we hold ourselves back from our true potential. Then we have to try something new on for size. This may not feel very comfortable, as change never is, but it will be so very worth it! We may shock ourselves and others with this new way of being, but what freedom we shall feel as we step closer into our truth rather than unconsciously repeating our old stories over and over again!

The good news is that Saturn is supporting us in our endeavours during this New Moon, forming a harmonious aspect to the Sun and Moon. Saturn left Scorpio on December 23 and is now in Sagittarius, the sign of beliefs, faith, education, religion, growth and wisdom. Saturn will revisit Scorpio from June 16 until September 18 so we will have another chance to plunge into the watery depths and revisit our fears of intimacy and any old, buried gunk which is holding us back. What joy! In the meantime Saturn is casting his stern, critical eye over all things Sagittarius; our beliefs, what we put our faith in, where we find meaning in our lives, what we need to learn in order to grow, where we might be excessive or irresponsible in our lives and where we might seek freedom at a cost. My sense is that we will be forced to examine and reflect on our beliefs and how they impact our lives and reality. The thoughts and beliefs that we have built up over the years have a direct impact on what happens to us and what we invite, or don’t invite, into our lives. Self-limiting beliefs can really hold us back from all that we want for ourselves in this life!

Saturn’s involvement in this Moon could help us to scrutinise these beliefs and realise where we are holding ourselves back from achieving our dream reality. What old, outworn beliefs are we still carrying around that simply no longer serve us? Another thing that Saturn in Sagittarius might bring about is a contemplation of what else we might need to learn in order to move forward and grow. This is a very good time to embark on a study program, or seek a mentor, apprenticeship, or do some kind of focused, disciplined learning. It should be something concrete and realistic that can really help us to create the future we seek. Saturn in Sagittarius could also make us all too aware of where, or in whom, we have placed our faith inappropriately. I sense that organised religion could be up for some scrutiny in the next couple of years! There could also be a renewed respect and interest in traditional belief systems.

Saturn represents commitment, discipline and responsibility; three words which don’t quite match the Sagittarius experience! Maybe something to contemplate is how committing to something or someone doesn’t necessarily mean a loss of freedom, but can actually free us up somehow, giving us more leeway to grow and be ourselves. Saturn in Sagittarius can definitely broaden our perspective on what commitment and responsibility truly mean and can also show how seeking freedom at all costs can actually imprison us more than we may think. Wherever Sagittarius is found in our charts is generally where we seek a lot of freedom to roam and may tend to shy away from commitment or responsibility because it makes us feel caged in, limited or confined. Saturn could cause us to have another look at the theme of freedom versus commitment during his stay in Sagittarius! The two don’t necessarily have to be at odds.

During this New Moon Saturn is helping us to commit ourselves to whatever intentions we set ourselves and also consider realistically what we might need to do to help us grow. Sagittarius might like to aim his arrow high and shoot to the heavens, but Saturn will help us focus on what we really want and what truly has meaning for us. He helps us to find the discipline needed to get where we are going and also helps us to take responsibility for ourselves and our journey. During this Moon he should help us come up with some solid, sensible intentions that will help us move forward and also help us to become all too aware of how our beliefs hold us back. He is on our side during this Moon, and, as ever, he wants the best for us. He doesn’t encourage short cuts or the fast track, however. Rather, he forces us to be patient so we learn slowly yet thoroughly. There is nothing quite as powerful as wisdom gained through experience.

Mars and Neptune are forming a conjunction in Pisces shortly before the New Moon is exact. Neptune is the ruler of Pisces, so this creates a double dose of the same flowing, dreamy Pisces energy. Mars entered Pisces on Monday 12 January and this could cause our energy levels to fluctuate slightly, causing bursts of energy followed by inertia. Mars in Pisces can create a certain listlessness and lack of energy but can also bring the potential for action fuelled by true inspiration and/or compassion. There is a sense of us waiting to act when the time feels right rather than forcing things. This is certainly a time to go with the flow to and not to push it when something doesn’t feel right. It’s a perfect time for intuitive action.
Mars is the assertive go-getter, and in Pisces all of the fight goes out of him and he just wants to keep the peace. This could cause a certain amount of passive-aggression, even in people who would usually be more direct. On one level, this combination could be amazing for us acting on our intuition and imaginations, while on the other hand it could involve some proverbial burying our heads in the sand and not acting in an effort to avoid reality! Over the weekend the Mars/Neptune conjunction will start building in strength until reaches its peak on Tuesday. On the one hand Neptune’s tendency to dissolve boundaries combined with the physical nature of Mars could weaken our defences and immune systems somewhat, while on the other hand it could lead to some truly beautiful, transcendental sexual experiences, as barriers melt and become one! Mars is also the ego; the “I am” principle that represents our individuality. Neptune is the “We are all one” principle and could well melt away our ego and individual sense of self! Mars will be in Pisces until 21 February.

Mercury Retrograde is also upon us again! I may well go into more detail in another post, but he goes retrograde on Wednesday 21, the day after the New Moon, in the sign of Aquarius. This is, therefore, a good time to reflect, review, renew, re-connect, re-work, re-evaluate, re-visit, re-do, re-consider, re-think; anything that involves looking back and going over things again. Mercury is quite happy in Aquarius and this retrograde period brings the potential for going back in and looking at things from a different perspective. Aquarius is very objective, so we can use this opportunity to detach ourselves a little and think differently. This is an ideal time for thinking outside of the box and trying new ideas on for size. Wherever we may be stuck in our thinking we will have a chance to free our minds. Don’t be surprised if you have some real “aha!” moments as you find solutions for anything you might have been struggling with. As ever, Mercury retrograde holds the potential for a certain degree of miscommunication, misunderstandings and breakdown of communication devices, so it is important to be aware of this possibility and maintain a sense of humour! Travel can also be hindered or limited, so be patient and remember that you may be delayed for a reason that is not immediately apparent. Old friends might also pop up, especially if there is unfinished business with them.

This New Moon is an opportunity for us to think outside of the box and try something new on for size. This is a time to envision the kind of future we want for ourselves and contemplate how we might work towards it. We have the potential for finding new solutions to old problems and for blasting through old, self-defeating patterns, beliefs and habits that no longer serve us. Aquarius is very objective, so we can harness this energy and imagine that we are someone else looking at our lives from the bird’s eye perspective, which should help us see what needs to change and what we might need to leave behind. It is a great time for setting some intentions which involve us becoming the person we really are rather than running on old, unhealthy, unconscious patterns and ways of behaving. We have had quite a jolt in the past few weeks with the mirror being pointed at us, showing us our unconscious patterns and habits. We have become all too aware of the ways in which we sabotage ourselves and hold ourselves back from achieving our hearts’ desires. This Moon is the absolutely best time to start fresh and step into something new. This may feel a little uncomfortable or awkward at first, but what is the alternative? We have to move forward now. Here’s no looking back.

Much Love


Mercury retrograde dates:

Shadow: January 6th
Retrograde Station: January 21st
Direct Station: February 11th
Release: March 4th

Saturday, 3 January 2015

CANCER FULL MOON - 4/5 January 2015

Exact at exact at 04.54am Monday 5 January GMT, exact at 11.54pm on Sunday 4 January EST.

Well, this is quite a humdinger of a Moon to start 2015 off with! This Full Moon is part of a Cardinal Grand Cross involving the infamous Pluto Uranus square and the Nodes of the Moon. Grand Crosses can cause crisis and tension which create big shifts, both personally and collectively. This Grand Cross is in the same degree of the Cardinal signs as the one that came to a head around April 24th last year, so there could be a link between what we are experiencing now and whatever was going on then. This could represent a very significant turning point in our evolution, both as individuals and as part of the human race. We need to be very aware during this time and do our best to release old patterns rather than falling back into them or allowing them to rule us. This could be a particularly emotional Full Moon, as not only do Full Moons tend to bring things to a head but this Moon is in emotional and sensitive Cancer who is ruled by the Moon herself! It targets the very root of our being, which is a sensitive place indeed.

The Sun is in Capricorn, the sign of maturity, control, discipline, mastery and the Father. It is sitting directly opposite the Moon in Cancer, the sign of family, nurturing, emotional roots and the Mother. Full Moons bring the energy of the two signs into focus and show where the balance might be tipping in favour of one sign or the other. Cancer represents our past; our childhood and the emotional patterns formed during that time. It is our inner world; the root of all that we are and forms the foundation that we spring from out into the outer world, which is Capricorn. We need a solid base to move out from so that we can go out into the world and be a successful human being, and this is what the Cancer/Capricorn polarity represents. Whatever happens in our childhood and the traits we have picked up from our family relationships, especially from our Mother and Father, have a direct bearing on how we function in the world. Capricorn represents authority, responsibility and commitment and our childhood, parental and familial relationships can have a huge impact on our attitude towards these principles.

Somewhere along the way we make certain decisions, or pacts with ourselves, based on what we see our parents do or the mistakes they made, and these decisions are then long forgotten and become part of us; deeply ingrained patterns which hold us back from being all that we could be. We all have so many of these unconscious habits, patterns and defence mechanisms which we are completely unaware of until someone close to us points a mirror back in our face! We formed these  for one reason or another, while we were too young to remember, and while they may have protected us back then they can go on to become quite destructive in our adult lives, sabotaging our relationships rather than helping them. This Full Moon will very likely bring some of these patterns up into our conscious awareness to be cleared and while the process might not be that pretty it could be powerfully healing and allow us to move past some very big blocks indeed.

Pluto is sitting right on top of the Capricorn Sun during this Full Moon, opposing the Moon, while Uranus is forming a square to Pluto, the Sun and Moon. There is a real sense of purging with this combination! Pluto and Uranus have been encouraging us to release outworn habits and patterns in recent times and during this Moon it will all become very personal, as it involves Cancer, the most sensitive, hidden part of ourselves; our tender underbelly. Pluto’s involvement will force us to face our shadows; the parts of ourselves that we have denied or suppressed due to fear. Often our shadows are aspects of our parents that we have experienced as negative and which we deny in ourselves. We may spend our whole lives vowing never to become them but the more we disown these parts of ourselves the more they come out in unconscious, indirect ways that we are completely unaware of.  

Pluto and Uranus could help bring these shadows out into the light of our awareness during this Full Moon. Anything sent into the shadows tends to have power over us, while acknowledging those parts of us that we have disowned will help us become whole and empowered. We are the sum of all of our parts, the good, the bad and the ugly and it does not go in our favour to hide from the parts we don’t like so much. Pluto represents deep, emotional honesty and in Capricorn he urges us to stand resolute in the absolute truth of who we are. No more hiding. This particular Moon is so personal that we are very likely to confront our shadows through our closest relationships. We are being giving an opportunity to clear the past and recognise our self-sabotaging patterns and it is very important to be aware of them rather than falling back into them and repeating past mistakes. It is easy to fall back into the “familiar” reactions, habits and patterns, but Uranus is trying to push us out of our comfort zones and try something new on for size. These patterns are only holding us prisoner and it is time to shake them off and break the chains that bind us! We just have to be very brave and be willing to not only recognise how we hold ourselves back, but also make the shift towards another way of being.

The Nodes of Moon are the final part of this Grand Cross and symbolise a personal and collective push forward in our evolution. The Nodes are in Aries and Libra at the moment, which is the relationship axis, so it is very likely that the shift will occur in our personal relationships and will help us move towards a better way of relating. Aspects involving the Nodes have a sense of fatedness or a change of destiny. My feeling is that this Grand Cross and Full Moon have the potential to bring things to a head to such a point that it is impossible to ignore our unconscious patterns. Our intimate relationships provide us with the means to discover those parts of ourselves we tend to hide from, because the closer we get to someone the more our unconscious reactions and habits come out. Our partners tend to shine a mirror right back at us that makes us all too aware of our shadows! It is quite painful to look in that mirror sometimes, but when we are able to without being defensive the greatest growth can occur. Becoming consciously aware of our sabotaging tendencies, shadows and ingrained habits means that we are better able to make the decision not to repeat them. It is empowering, because it gives us greater control over our emotional responses.

The good news is that Chiron, the Wounded Healer, is forming a harmonious aspect to both the Sun and Moon during this Full Moon. This will help us approach whatever comes up with compassion, gratitude, kindness and forgiveness, both towards ourselves and others. There is something quite raw about the energy of this Moon and, as I said, it touches the most personal part of ourselves and could bring a lot of unconscious, messy crap up to the surface. As such, I am quite thankful that Chiron is helping the situation out and reminding us to be loving towards ourselves and those close to us. We all have our quirks, insecurities and not so pretty parts of ourselves and there is something somewhat terrifying about showing them to another human being. This is what can bring true intimacy, however; allowing ourselves to be open and vulnerable when all we really want to do is run off and hide! It can also bring about profound healing when we become consciously aware of something that has had such a strong hold over us all of our lives. Guilt, blame and shame can be transformed into loving acceptance.

There is a strong sense of our past coming up to meet us with this Full Moon and we must be very careful not to fall back into old, familiar, outworn tendencies. It is so easy to do because they are what we know best. Instead we must be brave and try out a new way of being, based on who we really, truly are rather than who we are afraid we are. It takes a lot of strength and courage to be willing to face our shadows and change ourselves. This Moon is giving us the opportunity to do just that. Some pretty raw emotions could come to the surface over the course of this week, but they can teach us an awful lot if we are willing to face ourselves honestly and with compassion. We have the potential to break down some long standing patterns, both individually and collectively, which is very exciting indeed! It is time to “walk down another street”.

Much love


“I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost... I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes me a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. It's a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

I walk down another street.”

by Portia Nelson